2010 A New Year

Well it's 2010, a brand new year, why don't I feel good about this?  Always before it was a new beginning, another year to look forward to, vacations to plan, a "what next" attitude.  This year I just don’t have it in me.  What’s to look forward to?  We have to submit a vacation planner in work by March 1 and it’s making me crazy.  Just the thought of a vacation alone is weird and depressing.  I’m usually the person who plans and organizes everything.  Now I find myself going in circles and not being able to plan or organize anything.  How do we do this?  This journey is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I don’t like it.  I don’t like this new “me”.