Lately I have been thinking about my ex alot......not missing him, just thinking about everything he did to me. I have flashbacks of him hitting me and choking me, and it makes me feel like i cant breathe. Im not sure why I keep thinking about this stuff.....its been 6 months since i have talked to him. But I am getting a little worried that he is gonna pop up soon. I have dreams about him almost every night. Dreams about us arguing like we used to or me just being really nervous around him, acting like im happy but really scared to death. And I have been running into almost every family member of his i know. This has been happening recently and i just feel like its a sign that I am going to run into him. It makes me very nervous. Almost every night before i go to bed I just lay here and think back to when he used to beat me up. This new guy doesnt hit me at all, so idk why I am starting to think about this now. I can't let go of what I went through with him. When something happens with this new guy that reminds me of my ex it just brings me down so much, it almost brings tears to my eyes.....even if its somethin thats not that serious. I really wish I could just get him out of my head. I dont miss him and dont want him back at all!!