It has been awhile since i have been on here... everything is pretty good for the most part. I still haven't talked to my ex, but I keep seeing his family everywhere and I have dreams about us arguing like we used to. It makes me nervous because I feel like it's a sign that he is about to pop up. Probably sounds kinda stupid but its just weird how recently I have been seeing his family all the time! I am pretty stressed out because school is about to start and I am already struggling finanicially. I know when school sttarts its going to be even worse. I hate my job and that really doesnt help. I pay all my bills by myself and go to sschool....its really tough. I dont know what I am going to do. I have been talking to this guy for about 5 months now..... we are together everyday! But he still hasnt made me his girlfriend. He says he thinks about it everyday, but i dont think it takes 5 months to decide if you want someone to be your gf or not. This is what always happens to me.....my ex never made me his "gf" either, but I was the one everyone knew  about , the one he brought around his family but wasnt good enough to be his gf i guess. I dont know what  I am doing wrong..... it's kinda starting to bring me down. He told me the other day about how he bought his ex all this stuff when they were together and it just makes me sad because for some reason I can't get all that. I really dont understand. I dont know if I should just forget about it and move on or stick around and see if its gonna happen.....