Why do I feel so bad?!! I feel like I should be fighting for us... because thats what i do! i always do whatever it takes to make it work, but this time im not. He took all the fight out of me. It was always me doing the work. Him being with that other girl crushed me and changed me. But I just feel so guilty for some reason. I think about him just being alone or being sad, maybe even missing me and it kills me. But he did this..... he blames most of it on me, but I kno that not the real reason things didnt work out. The real reason is because i wasn't fighting for us. I could of told him I would do whatever it takes to be with him and that we can work on things but its like I just let him go this time :/ . It feels so strange..... someone I was so close to isnt here anymore. It feels like we both lost our other half. Thats what it feels like to me anyway. I find myself being happy alot..... but then i start thinking about him and just feeel guilty.