To night was the night I fell apart... he text me today and he argued with me a little, nothing too bad. But then later in the night he told me that he was going to make me his girlfriend on valentines day...which is also my birthday. Its been 3 yrs and he never made me his girlfriend. Anyway....he said it was supposed to be a surprise but it never happen cause things werent going very well. That didnt really matter cause I really don't think I believe him. But he also told me he loved me more than his ex girlfriend... who I thought he would always love more than anyone considering he was going to marry her. But what really got to me was that he has already had sex with someone. Its kind of confusing though because he lives with this girl...... and I found out he was cheating on me with this girl. So I already knew they had sex, but things went bad with them and he hated her and said he was never going to have sex with her again. And for a long time I believe he didnt. But for some reason when he told me that it just crushed me. It wasn't nothing new, but it just felt like I got my heart ripped out all over again. I knew he would have sex with someone eventually and even have another relationship with someone but I just dont think  I was prepared for it yet. Just the thought of him having sex with her ( who by the way I HATE) made me want to throw up! I just wanted him to wait awhile I guess. He was living with the girl cuz he had no where else to go ( so he says). Idk It wasn't something I didnt already know but I really thought he wasn't going to have sex with her anymore, and just hearing it again just brought all the pain back from when I first found out.