I am so paranoid of being a hoe. I know I am not but from everything he tells me it just gets to me because someone that I loved so much thinks i am just a trashy hoe. But I have been faithful to him the whole 3 yrs. yes there are things I shouldnt have done....but there are plenty of things he has done. And in my eyes they are worse then what I have done. But it doesnt matter whose was worse. But i just dont know how to live my life without having him in the back of my head calling me a hoe. I dont know who I am supposed to be. I have spent the last 3 yrs trying to be who he wanted me to be and now i dont really know who I am... or what I like to do. I want to have a real life w/ friends and memories but I dont like to go to parties like most people my age. I dont drink, I feel like if I was to go to a club or something then that would make me a hoe. Or I would be stereotyped as a hoe. I like to dress up sometime just for the heck of it. But I feel like if I dress up then that means I am trying to get attention ( cuz thats what he tells me). Ugh im just so confused!! I  just want to be happy.... i just dont know how. : /