I feel a little miserable. I wish I could go to class and actually want to learn something, instead of acting like im paying attention. And I wish I didnt have to go to a job that I HATE! I have been so unmotivated lately. I am a sad about my situation....but not like I thought I would be. I just feel so lost. I hate the town I live in, there is nothing to do here which makes it even harder to move on. I am ready to move somewhere else. All I want to do is sit at home and eat! I would love to have a job that I actually like, but that cant happen because I have to pay for this stupid apt. Its bad enough having to stay here for a week but when I want to go home on the weekends I cant because I have to work!!!! UGH!! im pathetic