The last time i wrote in here was when my "boyfriend" and I broke up........ since then we have gotten back together. But the good part was i wasn't the one who went back... he came back to me for once. Since we got back together things have been pretty good actually. I felt like he was trying to make things work. Like he was trying to change some of the things i told him i didn't like. So all was good.......until today. I have been telling him that I wanted to go do something fun. Because i never get to do anything, i always have to work. And we never do anything together but sit at home.  So i finally talked him in to going to this new mall a few minutes out of town. and as soon as we got there everything was ruined. We got in a big arguement and it just ruined the whole day. We went out to eat after that and that wasn't any better. He blames it all on me....... i always do everything wrong. I am so dumb and i haven't grown up any the last 2 1/2 years we have been together ( so he says). it sucks..... it makes me really sad..... even though i know things are the same. like the feelings aren't as strong as the used to be for me. I guess because i feel like i havenn't gotten anywhere with him. And i have tried so hard. It makes me feel so bad that everything is just falling apart. That it is so  hard just to make it work. he's having second thoughts about beiing with me ( again). i feel like the better thing is to just let him go..... but i just can't...... i dont know why, i feel so stupid!