Today was actually okay........ I didn't talk to him all day, I wasn't sad today. But I still have this nervous feeling........ like I am going to start to miss him and im not going to know what to do with myself. Everyone at work is helping alot. I told some of them the stuff that went on in our relationship and they told me I was better off with out him. It helps alot! I just get sad because I dont want him to talk to someone else........ I dont even want to think about it. It just makes me sick. And I dont want who ever the next girl is to get what I wanted from him. Just some love and affection ya know? Because then I would feel like she is better than me and he didn't really love me.....which I already think that, but that would just prove it. I guess i would never know. I still haven't brought his stuff to his sister's house......i guess because I still have something to hold on to.. and when I do that I know it's really over......... i hate feelin this way........ i just want to be normal