Today is the start of something that could be good and bad. My "boyfriend"  or whatever you want to call him told me he didn't want to talk to me anymore. Part of me felt a sign of relief, but a bigger part was afraid of what is gonna come next...... all the pain and afraid of missing him. It took everything I had not to cry when I read that message. I know it's better off this way because we never really got along that well. He said I was too dumb for him. I tried so hard to be good enough....... 2 1/2 years of trying and didn't get anywhere. He said he loved me, but I don't think he does. Not after all the things he said about me. He had NOTHING not even a place to live, you could really say he's homeless. Everynight he doesn't know where he is goiing to stay, and I was the only one that put any effort into helping him. But what I did wasn't good enough...... I wasn't good enough. I just hope maybe one day he will realize how much I loved him and how much I did for him, but i'm afraid I never ment anything to him. I dont know where to go from here...