Well I haven't been on here in awhile! Things were going pretty good for the most part, until recently. I feel like I am back to were I used to be.... but now I do feel a little stronger than I used to. But I just don't know what to do I am so depressed! My boyfriend is kinda back to his old ways w/ all his anger. He has like split personalities. He can be so nice and  funny, but then when he's mad he's like the devil! He brings me down so much. He calls me the worst names you could think of. And all he talks about is money money money! And how I don't do enough and how stupid I am. He said I am the dumbest girl he's ever talked to. But really the truth is that I do everything for him!!!! I get him food everytime he wants it, I do help him get money, the majority of the money he has is mine. He gets all my checks and any other money I get. I give it to him to help him out but it's never good enough. I know that the money I give him isn't gonna solve his problems but it's better than nothin. But he apparently doesn't get that. We almost broke up yesterday and he was telling me all the stuff I had  to do in order to stay w/ him. But I just couldn't leave, I don't know why. It's driving me crazy, I seriously want to kill myself sometimes. He brings me down that much. I don't know what to do, I want to be able to leaave I just don't want to miss him and I know I will. I really do love him, more than he knows..... I just can't take the devil side of him anymore. I don't know how to get past my insecurities and thinking that he is the best I can get.