20 weeks 6 days

Tomorrow I'm 21 weeks. Its still so hard to believe I'm actually pregnant. I look in the mirror at my baby bump and think this is for real this time. I've never been to the point where I can buy stuff or actually start planing for the future with a baby. I've never let myself get to that point with all my losses. Now that I finally am about to start buying stuff I've been looking for the perfect theme for his room and couldnt find anything that stuck out. I wanted to go plain like blues or greens but my husband wanted to go with a character and his first choice was pooh and I wasnt fond of any of the pooh bedding I've found. Well today I found it "Winnie the poohs portrait" bedding set. I absolutly LOVE it! Most sites I've found it on are quite pricy like $160.00 for 4 pieces, but I found it on ebay for $89.00 for 4 pieces and $159.00 for 9 pieces. So now I just have to go home and talk my husband into letting me buy it. LoL. Once he sees it he cant tell me no. LoL. Im doing better with the news I got from the doctor. I've talked to so many people where the doctor thought they saw something on the ultrasound and then when they had the detailed ultrasound with the heart doctor there was nothing there. I also talked to someone on here whos neice really did have a small valve and she had to have surgery at 5 years old and is now a healthy 9 year old. So it gives me lots of hope.  Im still quite parinoide. I now check Braydens heart beat twice a day. Instead of once a day or once every few days. Its been staying pretty consistant at 140 which worried me at first because it used to stay in the 150's. Well me being the dummy I am rented a doppler where you have to count for 15 secs then multiply it by 4 to get the heart rate instead of a digital one. Well the other day my husband was counting and he got 30 or 31 which would be 120-124 I started to panic. So I checked it again and  I got 35 which is 140 and what it usually is. By that time though I was in a panic and told him he was never allowed to check it again. He said why 120 is still an ok heartrate and I said yeah if it wasnt always 140 it would have been fine. I said if it really was 120 I would have made him take me to the ER. Everyone thinks I'm overreacting about the heart but its my baby I have a right to be scared. I have less than 2 weeks left till my appointment. I can make it!!! I hope! So we've decided on Brayden for the name havent decided on a spelling yet. I think I like Brayden but you also have Braiden and many others. We have a couple middle names picked out also. Brayden "Matthew" or Brayden "Lee" I like them both. My husbands middle name is Lee but everyone hes asked likes matthew better so now he dont want to use Lee. Any opinions would be great. I'm also willing to hear other middle names that people like. Such hard decisions! LOL.Well I better let you guys go. Hugs and love. Monica.