2 years on

Here i am revisiting this site after 2 years. Some things have changed. Im a bit stronger but considering its 2 years on im not that much further forward. I see a little progress but i am still trying to get away from James.......and failing. Im trying but lack the strength still to go thru the pain. Ive never had to do this before and i dont know how. Its the first time in my life that someone in a proper relationship with me has dumped me...and for someone else.....when i was still in love with and attracted to them. And ofcourse theres a child with him plus my 3 other children. I keep trying to be grateful for wht i do have and not dwell on what i dont have and miss. but lack of sleep and my chronic pain condition keep me in the mire.  but i dont give up for long. surely i will get there.