2 months
Today is the 2nd month anniversary since Jim passed. Weekends are still long. Have never been one to procrastinate but find myself putting things off continually. Cannot find the copies of the death certificate, probably stuck them somewhere when I was in a daze. The days pretty much meld into one long long long endless muddle. I know it all takes time. I know I need a change but have no clue what it should be. Move, new job, go blond? Big or little change? I am sure it will come. Going to see about a grief group. Not sure what I should feel but just don't feel right. Finding out a lot about myself, some things I knew kind of and others I was surprised. Always been a doer, strong and independent, but find I am more dependent then I thought. Wish the memory would come back because I keep losing and forgetting things. Spoke to my BIL last week and actually made it thru the call without falling completely apart-am taking that as a good sign!
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Thanks Terri. I smiled when I read your comments because common sense tells me the same thing. Move-to where?, Job, Walmart can\'t take the pay cut. As for hair, blond would not be that much of a change since it is a washed out strawberry. I am 58 feeling 88 so I know that feeling well. Don\'t see me running any marathons though! Looking at grief counciling, maybe being out with others may help a little. Thanks for the support! Roxanne