2 months

its been 2 months 2day since i lost my angel macy. i dont think i willl ever stop counting. I would of been 19 weeks 2mro almost halfway. I would of started to get a belly and be able to feel her move. Its the what ifs that r so hard to live with. I wish i still had her growing inside me.I have been doing ok and living life its just sometimes i have the moments where i am over come with saddness and miss her so much. I went to a bbq and saw a good friend who had her 3month old boy there i havent seen her since b4 i lost macy i feel bad for staying away and espically since she doesnt know the reason 4 it. I thought i would fall apart seeing the baby and all that i have missed out on but i didnt i even held him. it was a bit upsetting yes but more so when another friend said how much being a mum suited me and when was it my turn again. It some ways i wish i told people i was pregnant in the 1st place so i wouldnt get these comments i dont take them to heart bc i know people dont know how upsetting they r.I dont think it will ever get easy dealing with this date the 24th will always be a sad day for me.I love u Macy, Mummy misses you so much. Sending kisses to heaven xxxx