2 Days Mild Pain but Nervous 1/6/2014

The pain has been mild the last 2 days which is a good thing. I'm nervous about my pain doc appointment tomorrow as I'm afraid he's just going to write me off as I've tried all the meds and they either don't work or the side effects are worse then the illness.
I just pray to God this new doc has new thoughts/ideas and can give me something that will get me through this. I hate that no one can tell me what exactly this pain is. Where did it come from? They say it will go away in time but how do they know if they don't know the cause?
I don't know I'm just a bit nervous. I didn't sleep well last night and I'm sure I won't sleep tonight either. I just want to get tomorrrow over with and pray to God something good comes of this appointment. Going out in -40 wind temps to get a pat on the head is going to crush my fragile state of mind.
Mentally I'm still doing okay but I fear if the doc offers zero help I'm going to be very dissappointed.
Today I have some work to do and I want to lift weights at lunch. It may aggrevate the pain but I don' care. I'm not just going to sit here and do nothing while my muscles atrophy. I enjoy the pain associated with lifting weights.
More coffee then time to make the donuts....