2/3/2015 What A Fucked Up Bunch Of Weeks
Snowstorm after snowstorm; 20+ below zero wind chill for 2 days; bunch of losers so far on the online dating site; finally got the separation papers & the document to take hubby’s name off of the deed (both not signed yet- snow keeps getting in the way); scuttlebutt through the car club grapevine that hubby is saying our divorce is final & him & his new wife are going to be together forever; idiot ignoramus neighbors putting sugar in the gas tanks of neighborhood cars; and the most difficult of all- attempted rape by a friend of hubby’s.
Good thing I’ve been going to counseling or I would be paralyzed by this zoo of emotions.
And, April cannot come fast enough. This little village has gone to Hell.
Why am I waiting until April to move? I need to see my neuro one last time for a scrip to carry me for a few months and, my cancer surgeon wants a mammo at the 1 year mark to be sure the cancer has not come back. Also, to see my GP one last time for a physical & blood workup so I have current records to bring with me.
My Audi went in for its’ 75k service- takes 2 days. It took me 10 phone calls to find someone willing to give me a ride home from dropping off the car. I finally had no choice but to call hubby. I was not going to call Chris, who attempted to rape me. Had a chat with hubby yesterday during the drive. After hubby found out about what Chris tried to do, he was floored. Hubby took me to dinner & explained things are not going well with his African Princess he found online. He admitted it’s a good thing we are not together, as his family is becoming more & more financially dependent upon him (after hubby gave them $50k each from the lawsuit monies!) & hubby acknowledges this is something I disliked about his sister & brother. Hubby says his life is a mess- he has to ditch this woman he had move in with him, he has to clean himself up financially & get a handle on all of his payments, people he loaned money to are not paying him back & he has to dig out on his own, alone, no woman in his life.
Ah, the wake up call I tried to metaphorically slap him with many years ago has hit him hard in the cheek…
Hubby is still going to drive the U-Haul down for me & I can call him for help in the right now if I need it, especially after what happened with Chris. Princess has been instructed to leave her jealousy in her pocket. And, hubby clarified that it is Princess saying things about them being married. Don't know if I quite believe that it's all Princess that said such hurtful things about my divorce being final & they are married...
Lots of love to my DS friends! I have been busy packing up my life & seldom have time for DS. After I move, things will settle down & I will continue my good emotional habit of keeping my journal.
Good thing I’ve been going to counseling or I would be paralyzed by this zoo of emotions.
And, April cannot come fast enough. This little village has gone to Hell.
Why am I waiting until April to move? I need to see my neuro one last time for a scrip to carry me for a few months and, my cancer surgeon wants a mammo at the 1 year mark to be sure the cancer has not come back. Also, to see my GP one last time for a physical & blood workup so I have current records to bring with me.
My Audi went in for its’ 75k service- takes 2 days. It took me 10 phone calls to find someone willing to give me a ride home from dropping off the car. I finally had no choice but to call hubby. I was not going to call Chris, who attempted to rape me. Had a chat with hubby yesterday during the drive. After hubby found out about what Chris tried to do, he was floored. Hubby took me to dinner & explained things are not going well with his African Princess he found online. He admitted it’s a good thing we are not together, as his family is becoming more & more financially dependent upon him (after hubby gave them $50k each from the lawsuit monies!) & hubby acknowledges this is something I disliked about his sister & brother. Hubby says his life is a mess- he has to ditch this woman he had move in with him, he has to clean himself up financially & get a handle on all of his payments, people he loaned money to are not paying him back & he has to dig out on his own, alone, no woman in his life.
Ah, the wake up call I tried to metaphorically slap him with many years ago has hit him hard in the cheek…
Hubby is still going to drive the U-Haul down for me & I can call him for help in the right now if I need it, especially after what happened with Chris. Princess has been instructed to leave her jealousy in her pocket. And, hubby clarified that it is Princess saying things about them being married. Don't know if I quite believe that it's all Princess that said such hurtful things about my divorce being final & they are married...
Lots of love to my DS friends! I have been busy packing up my life & seldom have time for DS. After I move, things will settle down & I will continue my good emotional habit of keeping my journal.
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sending you a big hug!!! hope things get better. I hate snow too - that\'s why I still live in California with no family around. Don\'t know what i\'ll do after hubby dies, then i\'ll truly be alone. Spring is coming- hang in there- hugs Arlene
Hope things settle for you soon.
We are having an awful winter,but this is Canada.
Missed you
Laura