2/15/2015 Sunday
I know that today was really hard for me. I just can't stop thinking about my therapist appointment I had recently. She said not to tell anyone about my problems in my home or friends. That I should also deal with my problems myself and only talk about it at therapy sessions. That is so hard for me because I need help sometimes. It's not easy to hide my feelings so I usually talk it out with my family or friends my therapist thinks that if I hide my feelings from others it will be better for them and me. But it's not if I don't talk about it I feel like I can never get any help with my problems. I feel sad 24/7 or called all the time. I hate feelings this way and I hear voices and see things, feel things, smell things. I just can't stand all of these senses that are out of control. It's hard to concentrate at my college like school If I'm always feelings sad and just out of it. I'm so sorry if I'm rambling on but I really wish I felt better. I hate when my therapist said to me that I am able to control myself when I see scary things. I fear I just might run out of the house in fear of seeing these pictures appear on the wall again it's terrifying. See has no idea how scary it is to me to see the pictures they seem very real.
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I am so sorry that you are having such a difficult time. I am not a therapist, so I cannot understand your therapists reasoning behind telling you not to talk about your problems with family or friends (unless the family or friends were being negative and adding to your problems or offering you counterproductive advice). I haven\'t been to a therapist, but my sister used to see one. My sister\'s therapist encouraged her to find supportive people in her life that she could talk to and that would help her. I would perhaps ask your therapist why she doesn\'t want you to talk to those you are close to about your problems. I think that having a friend or family member to talk to that you trust and that is supportive would probably help you a lot. I sincerely hope you are able to get all the help that you need.
Thanks so much! sorry I haven\'t been on in a while I\'ve been very busy. That is a great idea though I should defiantly talk to her about why she said I shouldn\'t talk to my parents. That would get some of the confusion out of the way. I see her next week so I\'ll defiantly mention it to her. Thank you!