2-12-2016

So it's been awhile since I've made an update. So let's start. Therapy has been going great getting to understand why I was lying has really helped me to stop. I feel like telling the truth is so easy now for me. I've been 22 days free with no lies and I feel great. Now it's just time and space so 1 and I start to heal and see where this goes from here. Right now it's slow and steady she needs to make really concentrate on this certification for her cna 2 program and make sure her and her son are taken care of. Also I feel like it's to see if I'm really the stable person I make myself to be . I feel like I am. I just wish I could have done this earlier. Anyways I know what we have and my greatest fear is losing that. I promised her to be patient and understanding during this time but sucks cause I try to make things move faster cause I just want us to be a family. So I need to show myself that I can be the person I make myself to be which is a good father,husband, and a honest person. For valentine's day I made a necklace with a key a heart and a lock to represent she has the key to my heart I also made a bracelet and got a set of playing cards and made a booklet of 52 reasons why I loved her then I made two cheesy items that she loved which was I got a rock and wrote you     world  on top of the rock which says you rock my world.  And then I got a stick and wrote let's.   Together  to make it say let's stick together. Cheesy yes but she loved then a nice poem for her and I put in a box with her favorite Chocolate And decorated the box.  Yeah sounds like alot but I new she would love it cause I made it and I know she's in to that kind of stuff. 
 
   Anyways now as for myself from here I plan to just continue doing what I've been doing being patient honest and respectful. And to give space. It's hard thou like really hard especially since I'm so ready for this but I need to show that I can be the person I say I am.  Seems like I'm going on and on about this so I'll end it there. Stay postive and strong and know that everything will fall into place. Thanks for reading keep up the good work