1st Storm of the Season Alone
John, Well here it is September 2, 2011 and it's Labor Day Weekend and like usual Hurricane Season and there's a storm in the gulf. Having to worry about 1 house is bad enough but two. Boy I have never felt more alone in my life. This is the first time in my life that I will face a "Storm" totally alone. Me and Pebbles, this house is so big and empty without you in it. Thinking about getting a smaller one maybe I will move to Lafayette with Chad and Kristy after all. No memories there yet still close enough to see everyone. Everyone tells me to wait a year since I might regret it only time will tell. Gina and Hal made it home from Disney the weather was bad reminded me of the last time we took Alexa and from Alabama to New Orleans you could barely see out the window. How I miss those last minute trips just to get away you and me and you would always have to go tell Lexi bye just so she could look at you and say "Pops" you aren't going without "Me" and you would tell her hurry and pack your suitcase. She really misses you and is having to see someone to deal with it. She is too young to be going thru so much pain you were her everything. Your girls are falling apart too they just try to hide it from me but you know me nobody could ever fool me. So I act like I don't notice so they don't see me fall apart too. That is left for at night when I am by myself and can write to you. It helps to say it out loud. Went eat with your daughter tonight and wasn't expecting to hear what she told me I suspected, but you knew that she just needed to tell me. Her life is totally falling apart since you left. She feels like you were the only man in her life that loved her unconditionally, boy do I know how she feels. Wish you were here so I could talk to you. You could help me to make sense out of everything you were my other half and together we could face anything. Now I could do anything I want and I don't want anything other than to be back in your arms. I would trade all the money, possessions and my life just to have one more minute with you. Cause without you nothing is worth living for. You were my everything and now I feel I have nothing. I guess this storm has me feeling down in the dumps. You always said this weather was great for one thing, LOL. You had a one track mind. Boy how I miss that. Well it's getting late way past your bedtime LOL. Goodnite My Love. Dra'