1st Step

This is new to me, but I've got to start somewhere. I've never really viewed my porn watching behavior as a problem. It doesn't get in the way of my daily life, but I've started sneaking out of my bedroom in the middle of the night to masturbate and watch it, so my wife won't find out. Now, I'm not sure if porn is causing my insomnia or if my insomnia is causing me to watch porn, but it's a problem. My wife has caught me a couple times and it makes me sick to my stomach to see how it has affected her. I love my wife with all my heart, and I would never want to do anything purposely to hurt her, but she says it feels like I'm cheating on her when I do it. For so reason, even knowing that, I still do it. I guess the first step to fixing a problem, is admitting you have one. Well, I have an addiction/compulsion to porn and I want to stop! Thank you for all who read this! I needed to say that publicly and put that down in writing!