1st Entry

I have no one to talk to about my day with. I lost that when he found out I cheated again. I have no close friends to turn to in person. Thankfully there is someone on occasion I can talk to about my entire situation in my darkness. But as far as work and my day I've lost that. Will I get it back not sure. Wish I had friends to come to aid. But I keep people at a distance because of the person I am. I don't have lifelong friends and the one that is I wouldn't want to burden or hear what I know I need to hear. So staying home in bed is what I want to do only move around some while kids are home. But if I can cuddle with my kiddos makes me happy for a bit.
This is what I have to deal with, I know it will pass. But in what direction IDK