1 yr +

My husband and I got married June 09, a few months later 3 different people told us they were pg (a friend, a cousin, and sister-in-law).  Last year around this time there were 4 healthy babies born (sister-in-law had twins).  At the time I was a little frustrated, but still had lots of hope that I wouldn't be far behind and that there would be lots of hand me down baby stuff to make up for the delay. 
Now those people are planning 1 year birthday parties and here I am counting my options for how I can make this happen for me.  The thought keeps coming into my mind "I am going to be using my niece and nephew's birthday to count how many years old my kid should be by now"
I just want to be happy and everytime it seems like I am I see/hear something about babies and I struggle to not let it ruin my good mood (It almost always does)
Why...