Depression

Maybe I am suffering from depression,in fact I would bet on it.Thing's just don't change for me and my kid's,All I am asking for is a job,some simple job to bring in not a massive amount of money,maybe 600-800 a month,Is that to much to ask? I feel like Jesus and Pat and everybody just doesn't care about us,I know I am wrong,I know Jesus does and Pat too,but right now I just feel very much alone and confused.I am still debating on TN or MS,Each has their good and bad points.the main thing MS has is family,but TN is where my daughter want's to be.Everything is just a mess and no matter what I do I just can't seem to fix it. This trailer need's so much work,but atleast it's paid for,I am already worrying about Christmas,scared it's going to be a small one compared to what we are use to,I guess I should just be happy for what I have and grateful for all the years with Pat,just wish I had Pat and our life back,sometimes the life I have now,isn't worth getting up for.