What Now?!?!

here it goes,I found the singlewide in Jefferson City and put down the 200 dollar deposit,Then today while just looking on craigslist,there it is house with 3 bedrooms 1 bath,450 a month for rent,all utilities I have now would transfer and 2 miles from where I am now,which is where me and kid's want to be.So great, now what lose 200 dollars cause more than likely the guy won't give me back the 200? or go ahead and move to the trailer and be where we don't really want to be? I bet my hubsand is sitting up there laughing his butt off at me.I hate all these decisions,we use to make them together,wish there was a direct line to heaven to talk to Pat and see what I should do.I hate to lose 200 but then again it would be a cheaper move and in 4 months I will have made up the 200,and the lights would transfer and the lights for the trailer was going to be 325 deposit,so i might have made up the 200 right there.Maybe it would be worth it,only other thing's are that the mail still hasn't run yet and I am expecting the 2 check's from the govt.until that I am stuck in the apt.waiting.was suppose to move today and now looks like tomorrow.The landlord here is more than likely not going to give me a penny back,I was told he never does,even though I have only been in here 2 month's and everything will be clean,and we never even hung pictures in the bedrooms and 1 bath.Just feel like I am losing money left and right.I just want to gert somewhere that me and the kids can be comfortable for atleast 6 month's before we move again.(hopefully to place of our own). I miss Pat if he was here I wouldn't be going through this,we would still have our home and be fixing on it.I wish I could figure out what would be best for us. To many decisions---way to many