My story

My name is Tina, I am 32 years old.  I was sexually abused as a child. Afterwards I got into drugs, bad choices, bad friends, bad karma, Whatever!  I was forcibly raped at 19.  I went on a drug run with an acquaintance, I went to the bathroom, I came out, the acquaintance was gone and I was left for the dealer in exchange for calling his debt even.  I was raped for hours.  I blocked it and the child sexual abuse for a long time; thought I didn't need to think about it.  Pretend it never happened and it would go away.  It came back loud and clear recently, in intense nightmares and flashbacks; I am attempting to not be afraid of everything.  I've suffered a sort of breakdown and I hope to find some semblance of peace