Off to work today, had an interesting nights sleep, pity you cant switch off your thoughts!!! I remain totally positive during the day, but oh wow the night brings me thinking all sorts of things. thoughts racing thru my mind of what my future entails, like can i continue to work, i am soley reliant on my self, financially, will i be able to drive, walk, , those things terrify me,,, and the being alone thing, like what if my boyfriend cant cope with this and leaves me,,,
then i have to pull myself up and say ,,, stop it Annette!!!
Thank god its morning 
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Bless your heart, I understand thought I have a husband and not a boyfriend our marriage is better than I knew one could but I still have those thoughts from time to time . Nights some times I have the strangest dreams i could give Steven king a horrror story writer a run for the money. I have to commend you on your drive. Please tell me you are not keepin this info from your boys. I in my never to be humble opinnion telling them about it will help them to become better men. Problems like that are what seperates the boys from men
Does the goverment have a health care insurance that you can get?
Thanks yoohoo, yes my children know, l would not keep that from them, one promised to look after me, the other said he hopes he doesnt get it, the other tells me l am not going to die from it, they will all keep me in perspective. My sister said she faithfully promised to look after me, as l was having a freak out imagining myself drooling and in a wheel chair, my boyfriend said he would never leave me for this and would always be there, early days tho, and i imagine the worst. Yes here in australia we have what is called a health care card, which gives low income people access to free public health (altho with a wait list) and discount medication, so that is good.