now..........

yesterday was the party for me and my mom......it was fun....i got some good gifts and after my parents left my brothers and one of my brother's girlfriends and i just kinda chilled....they bought me a movie and it was all good......i was going to interpret a church service today, but when i got there the pastor didn't want me to interpreter because i'm agnostic.....that SUCKED.....my mom told me that i need to get these hours done....if i don't get these 2 hours i can't register for fall semester.....my mom told me that if i can't register for fall semester then i hafta move in with my parents in wisconsin.....i HATE the idea and i HATE that they're telling me this NOW and i HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just wanna die....i seriously do.....like if i die, i won't have to find anyone or anything new....i love my therapist and i love my doctors and i love my friends and i love my job and i love my psychiatrist.....i love everyone and everything HERE......why does life suck????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!