frustration....

i took this opportunity to do some more practicum hours on friday night.....it's in a town that's a little far away.....i haven't driven there before and i'm uncomfortable driving that way.....i texted the interpreter who asked ME to do it and told her i was uncomfortable and asked if she could do it and she responded that she felt the same way.....i texted my teacher asking if there was any way to get out of it....she said that because i'm a student opportunities will not "show up on your doorstep" and that our job requires driving....i know that not all opportunities will show up on my doorstep, i know you need to look for them....she said that i could get out of it, but that it would be a great opportunity missed.....that made me feel guilty and i have to go now....i feel like i have to go....i feel lied my comfort doesn't matter....i'm so frustrated.....i wanna restrict for a looooooong time.....i don't wanna eat anymore!!!!