good.....

i'm doing good.....my anxiety has been reduced...i has been one year since i cut....i was agitated and angry and anxious yesterday and i wanted to go home and mope and not work out, but i went to the gym after work as was planned....i was mad at a coworker so i just imagined her face on the treadmill....that might have been the most healthy idea, but it helped me...i really wished that there was a pool and INDOOR pool at the gym but there wasn't.....i felt like i could have released everything i felt if i was in a pool....whatever, it was fine....the anniversary of my second rape came up and that was why my anxiety was so high....i was able to work around it....i feel really good...tomorrow is my second day of school......i'm really motivated to finish school and everything....tomorrow after school i'm gonna go to another gym that i have a membership to and swim...i haven't swam in a long time and i wanna go swim.....it should be nice...i really just wanna be healthy and this is gonna work out!!!!! i can balance health and school.....i can!!!!