gross.......

since i restricted for over 20 hours today my stomach is KILLING me!!!!!!!!!! i feel like i'm seriously gonna puke.....i kinda do to make my stomach feel better.....like last night, i'm mad at myself....i almost went 24 hours without eating!!!!!!!! it woulda been such an accomplishment to do it!!!!!!!!! i just feel so gross, dumb, stupid, overweight, fat and most of all weak....so fucking weak....i couldn't go 24 hours without eating....i could only go like, 22 hours.....i wanted to go 24....i guess i can start over tomorrow.....sleep in and leave no time for me to eat, go to work, come back and work on homework and then sleep the day away....we'll see if i can do this....it'll be easier tomorrow....and with all this food in my stomach i should feel full for days!!!!!