kids.................

so i work at a gym where people can drop off their kids....they can work out or leave the building......i stay and watch the kids.....i love my job....it's great....today i went into work and i was walking around cleaning etc. etc....a kid came up and hugged me and then said,"when is your baby coming out???" i'm not pregnant.....i said that i didn't have a baby......needless to say the urge to restrict is so very strong......i had dinner tonight.......i made biscuits for breakfast...like the refrigerated one, so i feel like i'll only have breakfast so they don't go bad and then restrict the rest of the day.....i know that that's not good, but i know i'm overweight and i know that i'm fat......i hafta restrict.....i don't want others to make the same mistake.....i often look at myself in the mirror and i'm still disgusted with myself.....i was losing weight even when i was on my meal plan and now i'm not!!!!!!!!! i need to lose weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i shouldn't even have an ED....i mena seriously, i'm huge!!!!!!!!!!!!!