crying..........

i read in a magazine yesterday as i was waiting for therapy that i might have an ED.....i binge and then restrict.....i told my parents about it last night....my dad barely said a word and my mom said that i'm just overeating and then not eating because i'm not hungry.....i'm not so sure...when i finished my talking i said,"i'm sorry i'm not the daughter that you wish you had..." and burst into tears.....i just feel like i was doing SO WELL!!!!! and now i figure this out.....and my mom said that it was fine and that it's okay and that i ma the perfect daughter.....i just feel so unworthy and i'm so depressed.....i have urges to cut and to not eat today.....i don't know if i'm going to.....i just wanna be normal!!!!!!!! i don't wanna be here anymore!!!!!! everything seems to go wrong when it comes to me.....i don't wanna be me anymore!!!!! i wanna be someone else!!!!!!!