STRESSED....

i am sooooooo stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my mind is like mush and my anxiety is peaking.....i'm trying to stay positive and to take deep breaths, but i dunno how long i can do that without losing it.....i'm really scared that i'm gonna lose it and go back to the hospital....that scares me...i don't wanna go back.....it's been 8 months since i've been there and i don't wanna go back...i wanna break my own record......grrrrr....stressssssssssssss..........self injuring thoughts are coming back........