getting there
i haven't written here in a while, although i have been writing in my personal journal. the reason being i have needed to write crazy stupid shit like : how much i HATE the way he drinks his iced tea, the way he holds the glass, purses his lips, and swishes the tea like mouthwash........ and other idiotic crap.
BUT today i needed to drive to my parents house, about 25 miles, no big deal. i dropped a credit card while visiting last week and wanted to get it back. any way my husband does not care for my parents and often opts out of attending family functions (mostly ALWAYS) for some reason i cannot explain to myself i wanted my husband to come with me thinking (for some insane reason ) we could connect and just be together. HA HA not that it was a bad experience or anything but once underway i just could not remember why it seemed important to do it??????
He is still drinking while i am at work and blames the "slurry" events on low blood sugar values..... i am a nurse!!!! you idiot!!!! your monitor has memory and your are a liar. meanwhile when i am around and blood sugars are low, there are NO FREAKING DRUNKEN SYMPTOMS. geez addicts ate stupid.
BUT today i needed to drive to my parents house, about 25 miles, no big deal. i dropped a credit card while visiting last week and wanted to get it back. any way my husband does not care for my parents and often opts out of attending family functions (mostly ALWAYS) for some reason i cannot explain to myself i wanted my husband to come with me thinking (for some insane reason ) we could connect and just be together. HA HA not that it was a bad experience or anything but once underway i just could not remember why it seemed important to do it??????
He is still drinking while i am at work and blames the "slurry" events on low blood sugar values..... i am a nurse!!!! you idiot!!!! your monitor has memory and your are a liar. meanwhile when i am around and blood sugars are low, there are NO FREAKING DRUNKEN SYMPTOMS. geez addicts ate stupid.
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Sometimes I think they spend so much time lying to us and manipulating us that they convince themselves they are actually telling the truth. They ARE stupid, but you are smart, and strong, and a great person. ((((HUGS))))
Thanks Laura...I think the same of you. I am happy to have you as a friend and a support
You\'re in a tough spot. I think once the mental detachment hits, the things that bothered you a little before are unbearable. Plus once you accept your own reality and stop doubting yourself, the lying is much more infuriating because you can see it for what it is.