I have been very sad today and struggling with depression over losing my partner last May. I miss him so much and it seems with all the therapy and grief support I have, I still hurts so much. Somtimes I wonder if I'm going to lose my mind.Although I have been to a medium twice and belong to a Spiritualist church, I have experienced  a lot of evidence of the afterlife. However, I think because I haven't been there myself, there's a part of me that is so scared that I won't ever see him again. I hope to God that we are not just obliterated and everything I have witnessed isn't just wishful thinking.If we are just obliterated, then my life would seem to have no purpose. Just to live for the moment without being reunited with my Tom and mother. Maybe I should seek spiritualist counceling?