An update...

Nightmares have stopped and panic attacks are only 1 or 2 a week now, so things are getting better!  I think I'm seeing improvement with those, because I'm moving forward physically AND emotionally!  My workouts are now every day.  I'm still at "beginner" level, but daily I have better coordination, can do stronger moves.   Food was the most difficult because that's where my "security blanket" was and it was a struggle to change it.   In fact, the past 2 days, I would do great until 2 pm, and then get such crazy cravings that sugar was ALL I could think about.   Thursday was the worst.  But then yesterday (Friday), I was determined to make the change... I planned what to do and eat when the craving hit again (right at 2pm) and even though I didn't like my choice (applesauce), I still ate it, killed that craving, and DID IT!   Now I KNOW I CAN!  And compliments have begun... the weight loss (well, inches only so far) is now showing visibly in my face and 2 people commented yesterday at different times.... Next up is ramping up the workouts so the actual weight begins moving! 
And since that was my biggest emotional challenge - trusting in myself enough to take control of MY life - I'm getting ready to start working on the rest again... I'll keep you posted!  
 
Oh, and BTW.... Deepak Chopra's free meditation is beginning again... here's the link:  http://www.oprahdeepakmeditation.com/Bestsellers/LandingPage.aspx?BookId=178&af=850&utm_source=oprahdeepak_com&utm_medium=Registration_Recruitment_eBlast&utm_campaign=Perfect_Health        LATER!