Last Night
I know I shouldn't be happy....but I am.
Last night with him was so nice. It had been 2 weeks and we are so connected in so many ways. Not only was the sex amazing....we are just so bonded and talking and laughing and kissing and holding hands and all of it....it just feels right.
And I hate myself for it. I do.
My plan was to ask him where he's at with finding a therapist- because I want him to realize he doesn't need me. I want him to end it. I'm obviously not good at it.
But today....I'm happy. I woke up feeling loved and happy.
I know it's not forever- it can't be. It shouldn't even be temporary.
But today- I'm happy.
Last night with him was so nice. It had been 2 weeks and we are so connected in so many ways. Not only was the sex amazing....we are just so bonded and talking and laughing and kissing and holding hands and all of it....it just feels right.
And I hate myself for it. I do.
My plan was to ask him where he's at with finding a therapist- because I want him to realize he doesn't need me. I want him to end it. I'm obviously not good at it.
But today....I'm happy. I woke up feeling loved and happy.
I know it's not forever- it can't be. It shouldn't even be temporary.
But today- I'm happy.
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