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I feel terrible. I'm so down. I don't have any reason but i'm agitated, want to sleep and don't want to sleep. Want to do something but not.  i'm getting ready to turn 50 and I want to go to our timeshare but I gave up the dates awhile ago but now I want to go.  
 
That is so stupid. I am very blessed and I'm whining about not going on vacation for my birthday. I've got to let this go.
It's just something that I'm fixating on.  
DS is being referred  from vocational rehab to ssi. It's hard to have others say your child is that disabled.  
 I guess it's both issues making me nuts.  This sucks.