I don't know

I see so many people lost in a bottle. I have a brother who has 5 kids, no job, no sense of responsibility, has other people paying his bills and feeding his kids, and he drinks hard liquor all the time. THAT I SEE AS A PROBLEM. I have a cousin, who once he opens that first beer his entire personality changes for the bad.. that I SEE AS A PROBLEM!Me, I like to have a few beers in the evenings to unwind from the day. I like to play outside with the girls or read a book, or talk on the phone.. not DRUNK!!, but drinking ..I don't like to get drunk. So i don't. I just like to relax for a while. I am the type of person, I cannot sit still unless I am drinking a beer. I am fun loving, but just always busy busy, can't relax. Too much to do. And I don't know how to fix it. Sure, I could go get meds from the doc, but why? I am not breaking any laws, I do not put my children in danger. I don't turn into some vile, sloppy, drunk. My issue is strictly a spiritual one.  Raised southern baptist, am now church of God.  Actually in between churches at the moment due to a pastoral change. I've read all the things the Bible has to say.. do not be a drunkard, do not become drunk with wine, hell is full of drunks. And I see the first 2 examples in this entry as being drunks. I don't see me as one. I know people who drink so much they pee on themselves and slur and act crazy. I do none of those things. They get drunk and wanna fite and holler at and mistreat kids, bordering on abuse. I do none of those things. I just enjoy having a few beers with my husband in the evenings. So why this unease???