Thursday, February 28, 2008

Thursday nite. I am sober. getting ready to go to ladies nite and church. Hubby came in with an 18 pack. He drank one ans stopped. see he can do that.. me? i wouldn't stop til i couldn't drinki am actually thinking in my head that when i get home tonite i can drink a couple. I am hoping and praying that by leaving for 3 hours, the desire will be gone. surely it will. i am getting to know the process. the urge comes on sooooo strong, i fight it and it does go away. and i feel so good the next day. so even tho right now i want nothing more than to go get a beer and get sloshed, i am going to eat my dinner, go play cards with the ladies and then come home and go to bed. i do believe the desire will be gone when i get home. God Please Let It Be Gone!!