well, it's 6:30 pm and i made it all day without drinking.. the desire did go away. i played on the computer, ate a big dinner, did housework. I have taken some tylenol pm to help me sleep. i think i may be getting addicted to them. i hate going to bed and laying there with my mind racing or wake up in the nite with my mind racing.. Taking these pills stops that from happening. i don't know why i drink. i enjoy it. i like the carefree feeling it gives me. i just hate being useless when i am drunk and i cannot seem to drink without getting drunk. i am a drunkard and i am powerless over alcohol.