Well, I have been struggling and struggling with alcoholism. I am 35 years old, have an addictive personality. I see nothing wrong with having a couple of beers at HOME in the evenings after work. I have no kids, my house is spotless, I work everyday, even when I have a major hangover. But there are too many times, that I do not stop at 2 or 3, it's more like 15 or 20 in a single setting and 2 packes of cigarettes later. I have cried out to God to take this desire away from me, give me discipline and self control. But I kno wi have to daily choose not to drink, and that is so hard, because it is always in the house, my husband drinks. BUT I WANT TO STOP!! I didn't drink yesterday. probably won't today. I am usually good for about 3 or 4 days after one of my good drunks, then i start back with just one or 2. I hate it, I don't see why I do it, when I hate it! NEVER do I wake up from drinking and felt good about myself.I really hope this group here will help me.