what to do

Ok so Im on a low dose of zyprexa to help me over my fall phsycosis I get. Yea its not even Oct I some how I can pick up on evil. My pdoc says its a blessing but a curse at times.
I seem to get only six hours a sleep though at night. I take litheum about 1200mg. I seem to sleep a lil better when I take the zyprexa now. All my worries I guess are normal.
 My father inlaw yelled that I didnt know how to check my mail. I didnt even know I had mail at it house to worry about. So aparently he was  just confused.
He has cancer do to smoking. So i have to deal with him struggling. My own dad smokes and it bothers me, he is professor of counseling and should know better. My siblings are all smarties and I was stuck being the the runt got nothing but side effects of parents.