Well my home computer went dead after 11 years _ so I ordered me a new one as my gift to me.  It will not be here until Sep 17th so I have log on from work so I will be a little slow responding.

 Today was a bad morning - I had been staying at my dad's house for the week since they were out of town but needed to do some house tocuh-up painting at home to help sell the house. It just made me really upset to see my X and know it is over. Just not really looking forward to living by myself - seems to lonely. Maybe it will work in the mean time it is difficult. She seems so pleased and that also pisses me off - it is like I do not know - it is ike she does not have the care in the world that we spent 32 years together and it is over. It is like it meant nothing to her.