so my head is spinning it feels detatched from the erst of my body. my concentration is nonexsistant. im trying to watch tv but havent got a clue whats going on. 16 laxatives not reqlly had much of an effect. maybe its still to come but probably not. diet pills are doing want they say in the title killing me slowly. my body wants to feel the pain of harming. ive resisted. my body is shaky and limp it has nothing left. last night i woke up to voices in my head telling horrible things. things that will kill me. they have only let me go as far as the garden today. i no im slowly dying but i feel better not eating. im scared i will dye and noone will no. i dont want to dye.