I feel dead on the inside. My exsistance is only that which you can see. Its almost like im just waiting for my body to catch up and die on the outside. i know its horrible to talk that way but its just how i feel. my emotions are so up and down all the time that i cant keep up with them and when i try they stop and the feeling comes back. I dont suppose it helps that im doped up on nearly 100 diet pills a day. my body is so tired, stiff and my bum where the bone ends hurts so bad especially when i sit for more than a couple of minutes. yup i guess my fan club (HA HA) wanted to know that!