Ive been eating well for a while now, still struggling but im doing it on my own without meds so thats gotta be a bonus.  Anyway last week and a bit ive been mega struggling coz ive been ill and everything is a struggle when ur ill isnt it? I went to the doctors to see if i could get some antibiotics for my thoat and ears and turns out ive got tonsilitis so im a bit more ill than orinally thought which i can cope with but oh my goodness i didnt see my doctor i took a step of bravery and saw the other lady at the surgery. She obviously hadnt read my notes or looked at any of my history because she said drinks lots take the antibiotics and try not to eat! WHAT i couldnt believe she had told me not to eat. BIG mistake especially when im not well and need more so than ever to eat. Opps!Earlier i was like nice 1, i dont have to eat and have an excuse not to, but hey i no where it will lead if i dont eat today what will tomorrow bring?  Im a failed anorexic and proud!  Even though tho im still struggling with fighting laxatives and starving myself this is a huge step. I feel ive let myself down coz i cant do it anymore but deep down i no this failure is one to be proud of.