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Why do i feel numb?.......I dunno maybe numb is the wrong word but i just dont feel. I dont feel happy but i dont feel sad either. I just dont feel. If i felt i could do something about it or at least try to reason with it but i just dont feel anything. Ive not been feeling well this week. its a mixture of the side effects of the 'lovely' tablets that i have to take and working 50hrs a week plus 1 evenings trainning. I asked one of my managers if i could reduce some of my hours and she didnt take it possitivly. Shes not usually short tempered so maybe it was just a bad time to ask her but im digging my own grave doing all these hours. Ive also had a really sore throaht which has turned into a sore neck. I feel although ive got a cold but i dont really have a cough or snotty nose, ive got a dull head ach that is just making me feel lathargic and grotty. i went to sleep at 8pm last night and stayed sleeping til about 10am and ive still slept thos afternoon and still feel exhausted. I just have no energy at all for anything. i wanted to read my book this weekend and i havent even started it because it just makes me sleep everytime i try to read it. It feels like my head is caving in on me and there is so much going on inside it that i cant order anything. i want to over dose on laxatives coz then i wont have to think about it or try to order it.