i hate this eating lark. I just want to eat and eat and eat! im starving but im full. THis morningi looked in the mirror and nearly thought to myself that i was slim. I hate myself i hate eating but its the only thing that matters. I no if i binge i will feel really bad after and i wont be happy but i NEED the food. why is it so hard? Maybe if i eat and eat loads of fruit i will make myself sick. im feeling low today. ive already had 40 laxatives and i want so much more. ARGHARGHARGH my head hurts and i feel so screwd up inside